September, when it comes

I have a project
I work when I can
The mirror gets in the way
It reveals what I am

I remember me
I remember when
I use to love somebody
The image of a man

I got bigger
I grew smaller
decayed ambitions
In shit I Waller

Silent screams
Silent agenda
Silent schemes
Silent September

I make my seasons
I take to cope
I hang in freedom
From the rope

I'm awake
But I'm not breathing
Some may laugh
Though none are grieving

Some say " wow, imagine that! "
" All the signs were there! "
" If we'd only listened! " " If he'd only listened! "
" We all told him that we cared. "

Do no more
Do no less
I've won the war
And now I rest

me too

To those who have voices what do you believe their purpose to be?

voices in your head
thinking...
some would say the devil


true some would
I don't believe that
believe
what I hear punishes me

Why does it punish you?

hello

makes me do things I really don't want to do
we will see
Ever try going against it?

yeah
I go against it
sometimes ...

Okay, then have you ever tried going against it with God on your side?

and when I do
I get anxious and feel guilt
yes, I feel guilt

Then go against those feelings for they are not needed in you

What about you?
I went to war with them the moment they arose to position of power over me and I haven't backed down since

hmmm

I mean all out war destroyed the innocent ones with spirit and destroyed their God with power of logic but the remnants of the war remain the remnants I can't handle
I can handle them

Don't let guilt get to you
do not believe their lies

but there is joy in listening
For it is God that is waiting for you to believe and destroy them with your love
His love

Joy; is it good to you?
Is joy good for you; is it?

my voice is my voice
Is it the voice of God or Satan or is it myself challenging me?
I fight them

If I didn't I would be famous
but fame is what I really want!
but you must find for yourself, yourself
to find your source of power with them, within

I am powerless
God fights the big ones for me
and forgives me and feeds them

Then find your source with in you and fight back with your essence, with your spirit
I am polluted
Are you?
I don't back down

Were you born with any gifts of the spirit like speaking in tongues?
my birth is my gift
I'm glad you are alive then

me too

Those who roam the garden

Why won't you wake up
I want to tell you a story
while it's still fresh in my mind
I want to tell you a story about an angry man

He hurts the ones he loves because he knows no love
wake up, please wake up
I want to tell you all about him
You have to see what he has done

The angry man blended in the crowd
He though everyone could see him
His eyes showed his feelings
But no one would look at him

Wake up, baby, I saw him today
He was standing right beside me
I think he even saw you
Why won't you wake up

I think he had a weapon
Yeah I think he had a weapon
to defend himself
but nobody saw it

WAKE UP

The angry man blended in the crowd
He thought everyone could see him
no one knew his feelings
because no one would look at him

Wake up, please wake up, please wake up
I forgot to take my pills today
And what's that all over you
Why won't you wake up

wake up. wake up, wake up
you have to meet him
wake up, wake up, wake up
he followed me home today

Why won't you wake up

The difference between life and death

no more mask to hide behind
no more hiding from the light
I have to face my fears
I have to face my life

I wish I couldn't hear
I wish I couldn't remember

I have to look you in the eye now
my laughter fades to black
quit interrupting me
my pain, I'll take it back

the party is over now
everyone went home
memories return so clear now
and there is so much shame, I know

I wish you couldn't hear
I wish you couldn't remember

you make me sick
It's all your fault
I can't stand to look at you
because you unlocked the vault

You talked me into this
you dragged me all the way
you even laughed at me
every time I prayed

I wish we couldn't hear
I wish we couldn't remember

A picture of me

Look at the picture
What do you see?
It's just an image
A reflection of me

Is it a story?
And can you read?
What does it tell you?
This picture of me.

Is there a smile
Or just a though?
Am I on a journey
Or am I just lost?

You keep on staring
Until you believe
That you understand
This picture of me

The truth of the matter is
You'll just never know
The way that I'm feeling
When the lense is closed

When I get back to my livving
Do you suppose
That's there's more to the picture
Then just skin and clothes?

Guess all you want to
It'll take time
To see the real picture
Behind these eyes

There's anger hiding
So deep within
But the pain and the sadness
It's just below the skin

And you can't smell it
But there's failre in the air
And the confusion
It's everywhere

But the one I hope
That someone will find
Is the key to unlock
This cold heart of mine

But it's only a picture
That noone will see
And all of these words
They're just a dream

But I've got me reasons
For hoping someone will see
The truth in this picture
This picture of me

" In a nut shell "

I know some things are meant to be
And I know sometimes I believe in you and me
But I don't do well in company
And even in this prison of my own misery
I may be lonely, but that's what makes me free

There's different things that you can blame
luck or fate, to me it's all the same
And you, like me will make it through the pain
And all I want you to do is forget my name
I may be lonely, but that's what makes me free

I'm free to come and free to go
Free to act like I don't know
The answers to the questions that keep you up at night
And I'm free to keep believing that everything's alright

People come into your life
And then they go just like the night
And we wonder sometimes if they were ever really there
And why we'd waste our time with people that never seem to care

I'll just run
Yeah I'll just run
Away

I may be lonely, but I'm free

What's swimming?

Part one:

All those words leave no scars
because I heel them in the bars
I drink them down with alcohol
the Lord never got my call
He left me here with you alone
With you so mighty on your throne

And the lump
That's in my throat
Is getting bigger
How will it end
It's hard to figure
Swallow it down

Sometimes all I want is a little rest
But you still say that you know what's best
Sometimes all I want is a little rain
To wash away some of this pain
The pain you cause, the pain I feel
Don't you tell me it's not real

And the lump
That's in my throat
Is getting bigger
How will it end
It's hard to figure
Swallow it down

I'm tired of working for a little pay
Just to come home to you each day
There's no peace in our home
And never any time to be alone
If I could I'd buy a gun
If I did I'd end you fun


And the lump
That's in my throat
Is getting bigger
How will it end
It's hard to figure
Swallow it down

You took a child and crushed his mind
Broke his will and made him blind
You tied him up by his little limbs
And you still have him by the strings
Too selfish to see what you've done
To busy to know what's yet to come

And the lump
That's in my throat
Is getting bigger
How will it end
It's hard to figure
Swallow it down

Part two:

I though he was sleeping
When I walked in
He didn't notice
me weilding a grin

He could tell I'd been drinking
So I suppose
From all of the liquor
Upon my clothes

No I wasn't nervous
I wasn't afriad
I gambled with demons
And I came out ahead

He never realized
That he pushed me too far
Until I stabbed him
When I came in from the bar

A lifetime a sadness
My whole world just pain
And through my own eyes
He was to blame

Now he lays so peaceful
The war finally done
He lay there just dying
I finally won

The time moved so slowly
As he tried to hang on
But it had only been minutes
Before he was gone

And all of my anger
And all of my pain
poured out of my body
just like summer rain

Still there's no refuge
From all I've endured
And if the law ever finds me
They'll be many years more

Father forgive me
For what I've become
But, you see you're the reason
For what I have done

You're the reason I run

Pointing fingers

The rain poured down on my home town
And like the rain I was falling down
Sittin' in a chair and letting my mind roam
I thought to myself, " This don't feel like home "
" No this just aint where I belong "

The the thunder came along with the rain
And I still felt about the same
As we both cried out in pain
And lightening snuck in the background to shed some light

" What's so different about this night? "
" It seems like I can't do no right "

As the gutters spilled, the puddles filled
with pieces of dirt and of my work
That gathered just below my window sill
And when they had enough they over filled
Then washed away with the water and the wind
Oh it's such a sin

I saw it all going down the drain
I saw my life washing down the drain
You see me and rain we're sorta just the same
Noone really cares about our pain
Ain't it such a shame
To be called by so many wicked names
We both have noone we can blame
For how we fall or which way we came

Oh but it's all fair; If I dare
Because storm damge can be reapired
And rain clears up all the air, washes away my despair... sometimes
Yeah it makes way for sun
Makes you appreciate what it's done
Still to shelter do we run
When everything starts falling down

So many lessons learned
You see some people they carry the rain
They spill it on you and call you names
Trick you into playin' all their games
But they don't know what their doing now
And they could never tell you how
To hurt someone with purpose or with force
Afterall it's just a game of corse

Still these people are just pawns
Weilding different uniforms
And hiding from the sky
And hiding from the times when we die
By making sure you know how insignificant you are
By driving around in shiny cars and wasting money in the local bars.

Look outside and count the rain
We're all just one. We all look the same.
And we all should be ashamed of the puzzle pieces we've become
Tell me, was it in your plan to use me on the run?
So easy was it fun?
And don't you see what you've become?

There's a purpose for you and me
One is lust and one is greed
Some are things that noone needs
Others like the rain get washed away
But true friends might call back someday
When their short on Fridays pay

The rain poured down on my home town
And like the rain I was falling down
Sittin' in a chair and letting my mind roam
I thought to myself,

This don't feel like home
No there must be something wrong
Because I'm still all alone
But atleast I know it's safer this way
No Donny can't come out and play today

I'm just too busy counting all the rain.

In the key of G

I break my back everyday
Building a tomb for little pay
The sun may shine, but the sky's still gray
And the angels won't take me away

Just can't wait 'till I hear 'em say:

Come home, child come home
You have no longer to roam
In your world all alone
Lay down child come home


God made me just how I am
For whatever reason I don't understand
But do ya think it's in his plan
To be the worlds' lonliest man

That girl she looked me in the eyes
But her kindness was her disguise
'Cause she always smiles when she lies
And though she hurt me it was no surprise

My Father that's a story to be told
And his weight is a heavy load
But there's know way to unload
Until one day when it all explodes

And the angels sing

Come home, child come home
You have no longer to roam
In your world all alone
Lay down child come home

Since I stopped sleeping

since I stopped sleeping
There was hope, back then
Yes there was hope, back then

They told me I could become the president
And I believed them
I believed in me

And my Father could do anything, back then
Yeah my Father he could do anything, back then
And I loved him
Because he loved me

But quickly changes come around
And soon the world was upside down
I learned that money makes the world go 'round
So many new emotions that I've found

Take them away

We were living in a brand new town
My childhood smiles faded to frowns
Superficial peers, they put us down
And all our plans came crashing down

Still I thought that things would change
And someday I'd have my fame
But everything I wanted only caused me pain
I guess the good times never really came

So many people I could blame
But every victim is just ashamed
And anger is a monster that can't always be tamed
And sad stories always end the same

So take them away

If I had had one wish I know what it would be
I'd ask someone to take my dreams from me
Though they've kept me going on and on
You can only believe for so long

There's so much torture in the things you never do
There's so much sadness when they don't come true
And it's so foolish to want something new
Who's idea was it to make me hope for the things I do?

Dreams to me are some kind of game
And dreams aren't always easy to explain
And I don't care from where they came
No I'm not looking for someone to blame

Just take them away

Yes there was hope back then
Or maybe it was just pretend
Or maybe it was just the beginning of the end
either way

Just take them away

Please take them all away

I shovel shit and it's a life-long commitment

I do it so well, but if you get too close to me then you are gonna stink so beware because this destination ain't on the road map!

When will this sadness pass? hahahahahahahahahahahaha
I'm so tired of this. ( broken record, record, record )
I want things and sometimes I get them and when I do.. I guess I just run.
I don't trust anyone with me.
I look to me left and see happiness.
I look to my right and see more or less the same.
I look straight ahead and see nothing, even though it's blury I can tell it's nothing.
I don't want to look behind me, but I do sometimes.
I just wanna hold it in my arms and make it sing... such beautiful torture.
I don't answer my phone because I'm selfish as I wallow in my fowl sickness.
It's just a pill away, a few hundred dollars and a few hundred pounds.
Everyone grew up, up and away from me as I watch from the starting line, broken down.
I am so afraid of you all... you can't be nice to me.. you can't " like " me.
You are up to something.. all of you and I can't sleep and God; He took my tears away forever. Why?
What does he have to gain?
Maybe it's just MY pride. ( get it? my pride.. hahaha I have so much to proud of as I look in the mirror )
I'm gonna run away someday, change my name, change my hair.
I'm gonna learn to play the guitar really well and then only play when I'm alone.
Yeah I'm gonna play guitar all the time.
I'm gonna be a dishwasher and pay taxes like every other American.
My ears are attached to my heart and they both get stuck in my mind sometimes.
And that my ' friends ' is where I am today.

genesis

I was born in a little town that followed me around
If it ever was on top of a hill, it must have fallen down
I saw a place where kindness grows. That's where I was bound
I found a place to hide my dreams, but someone burned it down

As I child I could run, but now I've turned to stone
Once I thought I had some friends but they left me alone
Darkness fades into the light and soon it overcomes
The laughter of the misery is what we all called fun

And there's a place that's in my mind
Some folks search but never find
clothes your eyes and look again
I always knew you all were blind

Take a breath and have a seat
Look what we've become
Strangers all around this place
They speak in foreign tongue

And don't forget to save your money for a rainy day
And sharpen all of your swords, sacrifice the ones that pray
Keep all your treasures hid, the ones that you can't see
If they ever see the light they're useless to you and me

So now we're all out on the road, but the road is standin' still
Pack your lunch and alibi in case you have to kill
Fight the man in front of you and don't get left behind
The answers that you seek are always found in time

The only way that I'm up is when I'm feeling down
The only time I feel loved is when you're not around
Take these chains and tie me up, you don't have to try
Thoughtless sayings and better luck, no longer tears I cry

Abraham was just a man, blame him all on me
See the cross and the blood still I pay the fee
Sins sometimes weigh more than gold and cost you twice as much
Out of time and out of mind and sometimes out of touch

pleasant dreams

I was blessed with bad eye sight
I can see the wrong from right
Unlike you
This much is true

You build walls to tumble down
And roads to turn around
happiness can't be found
until it's time to go

People travel many miles
Standing still among the piles
Come and go, but all the while
Nothing's meant to last

Someday the rent you owe
will become due
Someday the chain you've made
will be through

Kings may sit on velvet thrones
Poor folks dream about a home
noones happy on their own
but alone is all you are

fancy clothes can't hide your fears
and you can't cover up the years
of all your sins
what did you win?

in your youth the time flew by
you stayed too stoned to recognize
that clock upon your wall, never knew
one day you'd fall

The water's rising faster now
than you ever thought
and every hope you've ever had
is another dream that's lost

Still, someday the rent you owe
will become due
Someday the chain you've made
will be through

Fat People

I just can't sleep alone anymore
So I stay up and clean the floor
And search for treasure in my drawers
It's a temporary thrill

I wish for things that I can't have
I read the bible just for laughs
I play guitar with an autograph
A song no one will hear

I wonder what people see
When their eyes are upon me
The cover's just a fallacy
Good just isn't here

Then my phone begins to ring
But I don't want to talk to him
I'm busy plotting evil schemes
Alone down in my room

I'm in the closet with an unlocked door
But most of them just want a whore
What do you want to use me for?
It's time to change my clothes

I dream that I could dream
Don't you wish that dreams came true?
What would my dreams do to you?
I bet you wish that you knew

BUT NOTHING ever happens
and NOTHING ever changes

I just can't sleep alone
No I won't answer the telephone
I may be in, but I'm not home
I'm just someone all alone still

Damn, God

God,

I know time doesn't matter to you, but right now to me it does.
It may not seem that it's been long to you, but I don't know how much more I can take. From the outside looking in, to my "friends" that are looking in, it seems like I've got it made. I know things could be a lot worse and I'm thankful for all I have.
In your hand book the theme seems to be great suffering followed by great reward. Have I not suffered enough? Have I began suffering? Only you and I know what is in here, right? Who can I relate to? God, why don't stop this. Look what I have been through and what I am going through. I don't want to spend anymore time in this part of life.

What's that Cliche from your hand book... that diluted book of painful shit; The dagger that cuts people to pieces? Oh yeah " The Lord gives and takes away " Yeah well that's true. Remember my life in Texas? It's gone! What about my job and my back? What happened to them? Why did you put in the path of that storm? Why did I get killed by the Fosters? You saw it and you sent me back to Hell with Russ. Is this what you want? And why do you let my Dad get away with it? I know that I'm a piece of shit, but you made me and your world shaped me.... your world of churches and "Christians". I'm so close to letting go of you. Maybe I have to go to prison to find you? Is that where you are? Can't you see how fucked up I am? Look at me! Is there ever gonna be a way for me to be happy on earth or do I have to wait until you come and get me? Will you come and get me? I know I have no peers on earth and I guess I no longer care about the respect of others. I know what I am, but damn.. If I can't be happy and I can't have love and I can't be skinny and I can't have talent or strength; is there at least a chance of happiness? I mean I know I could do a lot of if I had motivation, but look what happened the last time I was up. I fell that much harder. YOU did it! Didn't you? A good job, a good body, money in the bank and light at the end of the tunnel. All GONE! Now I'm miserable and in shit up to my nose. God does anyone else really hate themselves like me? So down that as soon as someone likes me a red flag pops up in my head and I run... I run because I remember. I remember when I loved. That was... well I still have the scars.

I used to believe in you with all my heart. But my heart isn't doing so well. I'm starting to doubt. I'm sorry, but it's true. How can you see me like this and not free me? If I'm still welcome up there, please come get me now because if you don't soon than we're through. I'm gonna start checking off the list. You know the list. MY list. I'm not threatening you. I'm begging you.... PLEASE HELP ME!

This just has to change. I'm not taking anymore pills. I want a change, not a pill to make me not give a shit anymore. Don't you see how everyone fucks with me?

I'm sorry that I'm so mad at you, but I am just trying to remind you in case you forgot. Please give me inspiration, motivation and the eyes to see what path to take. I have to get out of this. You know it's bad when in the back of your mind you hope your Father dies. You know it's bad when in the back of your head you hope that you die. You know it's bad.

Oh and thanks for the sore throat.. it's been a good month since I had one.

The big bang theory

If I had a weapon
I could use against the world
I would leave at night time
And I would start with all the girls

I'd stop all the pollution
That pours from within their wombs
No ignorance would blossom
No one would have to choose

I'd end all the teaching
Of those who prophesies
There would be no more religion
To make the people cry

If I had a weapon
I'd wouldn't run away
If I had a weapon
I'd make the guilty pay

I'd stop all poor ones
From steeling everything
The government don't give them
The right to live that way

No innocent would suffer
The rest of you I'd slay
"Finally we're all happy"
That's what the good would say

Yes FINALLY we're all happy
To see another day

And if I had a weapon
Everything would change
You'd see me up on T.V.
But I'd have nothing to explain

As my plan unfolded
right before your eyes
The contributors rewarded
The worthless left to die

And all who made me suffer
Would be the last to go
So they could see it coming
When they wouldn't know

If I had a weapon
I'd wouldn't run away
If I had a weapon
I'd make the guilty pay

So look at your existence
And tell me what you'd do
If I found a Genie
To make my dream come true

Would you all start running
Or grab your battle gear
We could have some fun then
If you had no fear

If I had a weapon

Touch me

The sun, the sky is shining bright
But it's hidden by the clouds
Nobody hears the voices
Because they're screaming way too loud

Do the best you can
By killing other men
Yeah, that'll do the trick
Make your money quick

The moon, at night glows from up above
Shining down with love
But you can't touch it without a glove
People push, but you don't shove

No I don't know
Which way the wind will blow
No I don't know
The difference between the highs and lows
I can't tell
How I feel
But it's real

Under darkest skies of red
You lie awake in bed
Thoughts racing through your head
What was that they said:

Did we win or did we fail
The check is in the mail
Stand on your own feet
Listen, can you take the heat

No I don't know
Which way the wind will blow
No I don't know
The difference between the highs and lows
I can't tell
How I feel
But it's real

Now the days blends into night
You wonder if you should stay and fight
The monster's down the hall
Because the pills don't work at all

You packed your things this time
And nobody tried to change your mind
But what your really running from ( is ya )
Don't wanna be what you've become

No I don't know
Which way the wind will blow
No I don't know
The difference between the highs and lows
I can't tell
How I feel
But it's real

Always the same cliche
Tomorrow's another day
Hit your knees and pray
Don't let love slip away

But your love is on the sheets
Your friends are in your head
Your work is not complete
That's what Jesus said

No I don't know
Which way the wind will blow
No I don't know
The difference between the highs and lows
I can't tell
How I feel
But it's real

Bill

Another world, living all alone
Another prison that doesn't feel like home
Another name to explain why my mind roams
Another day

Is there a light on somewhere inside this place?
Was that a smile I saw upon my face?
Are there still dreams here close enough to chase?
Can you tell me?

No dark glass or aluminum cans
No Friday night and no social plans
No bar maid to tell my problems too
Just me and you, a new shade of blue

Cover my emotions with little pills
Take away the sadness, take away the thrills
Take away the anger and take away me fears
Make me smile for the rest of my weary years

Someday I'll fit in or maybe rise above
Someday I'll be the one somebody loves
Someday I will look back and laugh about the pain
Someday when they ask, maybe I'll explain
When I'm happy

But for now with reasons no one knows
I have hide the truth, the truth that I don't know
I have to wear my camouflage and hope it doesn't show
No one knows me

Another bottle, another name
Another character added to the game
Another symptom and another problem solved
Another year, how much have I evolved

I'm still ugly
still unhappy
still I miss you

Moving Day

Here comes the city
Here comes the rain
Here comes the fear
Of the heat from the flames

Here comes the loneliness
Here comes the fear
Here comes the answer to
Anywhere but here

So goodbye to the old times
And hello to the new
Times to surround myself
With a different shade of the blues

Does the city have open arms
Or will the big city cause me more harm
And will I find love or end up alone
Will the big city ever feel like a home

I can play my guitar out on the deck
Or walk down the street and be called a redneck
I can spit on the street or spit on the floor
As long as at night I lock my door

When I play my guitar will they all laugh
Or will someone ask me for an autograph
And when I sing will they sing along
Or tell this old cowboy it's time to move on

And will the city swallow me hole
Crush all my dreams and burden my goals
I'm sure That I'll make it cause I'll find a way
I'm moving down to the city today

Here comes the city
Here comes the rain
Here comes the fear
Of the heat from the flames

Here comes the loneliness
Here comes the fear
Here comes the answer to
Anywhere but here

So goodbye to the old times
And hello to the new
Times to surround myself
With a different shade of the blues

Progression

The clock on the wall keeps ticking away
The clock on the wall is stealing my days
And I don't no where to go

An old man is running out of day
But still he dreams of running away
But he don't know where to go

A young boy dreams of the ways
To spend his future so far away
But he don't know the way to go

No we don't know
Where to go

Sometimes the world runs out of love
Some people push, some people shove
But no one knows 'cause truth don't show

No the truth don't show

So in your life of running around
you look up and you look down
But which way will you go

The truth is
That we don't know

Birth

I'm from where everyone's from, but only few will go.
No one wants to talk about it. No one wants to know.
You can smell the sin of my travels, it's even on my shoes.
But there's no need to find me because I'm not on the news.

I hide in a city, miles away, across the room from you.
You think that you may see me, but there's nothing you can do.
There's nothing you can say and why ,why would you even try?
I'm the best thing in your life, but you wouldn't notice if I died.

So now your caught in traffic as the radio drones. You may ponder MY words, sitting still, so close to home.

And when you arrive who is glad to see you? Who is glad to see you?
Oh precious, sweet things. I work so hard to keep you.
Will you love me? Comfort me? Keep my thoughts at bay?
The answer is no.

The bottles break against the wall, but no one can hear you.
But I can
Where are you from?

Spare change

Why do I dream so much?
Why do I waste the day?
Why when I'm at work do I feel so far away?

I wish I was like you.
Yeah I wish I knew.
The direction I was headed and if I was on my way.

But it's not so simple.
No it;s not so clear.
And I just don't know how to get there from here.

But everyday comes and goes and nothing seems to change.
I go through the motions with only me to blame.
I'm trapped in my mind and running out of time.
What should I do?

Wish I could run away.
But I won't get far.
Because no matter where you run, there you are.

So I dream some more.
Then I 'll complain
Like I said before nothing's EVER gonna change.

And when I can't sleep
I pick up my guitar
I wish I was alone, but there I am again.

And everybody comes and goes and nothing seems to change.

I go through the motions with only me to blame.

I'm trapped in my life and running out of time.

What should I do?

Yeah

What should I do?
And where can I go?
And this love inside of me will they ever know?
Does anyone ever want to know.

And love could I share?
Is it still in me?
Or like everything else is love still just a dream?

Who is this guy?

I cause the laughter in a room
When I sing of doom and gloom
As pathetic as it seems
This is how I dream

I am the butt of every joke
No I don't have the antidote
I offer no reply
No not to you or I

I'm just the junk mail in your box
I am the ticking of your clock
Overlooked and thrown away
This is how I start my day

I am the nightmare in your sleep
Don't let me go too deep
When the surface is so safe
depth is just a waste

I am everything you hate
And everything that you can't take
So "special" and so clean
My head's bustin' at the seams

Your deafness is so loud
And your ignorance so proud
You live inside a box
Take your hate out for a walk

You say you know my type
And you don't believe the hype
"Attention is what he seeks"
"He's just bein' weak"

But the jokes on you
I see EVERYTHING you do
How you shiver in your sleep
The promises that you don't keep

I am your envy